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My younger self used to be scared to speak my mind and say how I feel . Now as a free speaking adult I can see how silly holding back and not being open was because being open has only worked for me and not against me. I’ve learned that having a fear towards how someone would react to how I felt or what I wanted was having a fear for what is actually for me. I’ve learned that the worst a person can do is say no, or not respond the way I want. And what do I do? Move around. The world does not end. If anything you get redirected or you get what you want. And in either option you are getting what you need. It’s very freeing.

My mom would always force me to attend family gatherings / parties when I was a kid even after me saying "no" multiple times. Then she would get mad because I looked unhappy. She would proceeds to attack me the entire time by gaslighting me. "You're such a weirdo, you're unfriendly, no wonder you have few friends. Even as an adult now, she just told me recently, I'm surprised you even have a boyfriend with that attitude. You don't like anything most people do, why do you have to be this way?" and other similar things. The thing is: For years I've told her I don't like get-togethers at all unless it is an occasional small child's birthday. The adult parties are usually always the same everytime: very loud lame music and drinking. It's boring to me, unless I'm at a theme park and there's things to see and do, I'm not interested.

Who else is ready to start growing and hunting your own food to survive? We will be living like " little house on the prairie".

You can tell when someone is doing something simply for the means of making a dollar verses someone doing something through passion and their actual care and commitment to that cause. All I have to say is the universe rewards those that operate in integrity, authenticity, and pure intention. You won’t have to money gouge everything because you will be taken care of. I see it time and time again.

The moment you accept that you dont know the answer to everything is the moment you begin to LEARN.