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Exercising helps me to be a nice girl because when it's shark week aka PMSing then I seriously get so "plssy" as my mom would say. I think she's the only person I have heard use that term Lol I used to use this time of month as an excuse to not workout. Especially after my ovary ruptured and I was having the absolute worst menstural cramps of my life. One day it was so bad that I was looking up ways to relieve it online and the article said exercise would help. It always stuck in my mind but at the time I was like eff that no way but now that I have built the habit of daily exercise and so I don't even worry about cramps because I know that I can relieve them but by doing what I do - working out consistently!

For about 15 months I have been telling the doctor to refer me to a dermatologist and every time I hear the same thing " lets try this cream " after they have tried every kind possible and last month he finally referred me to a dermatologist. The dermatologist couldn't understand why they hadn't sent me somewhere before now and why they had never tried treating it internally. Finally someone that is actually going to do everything to get me better. They just prescribed 3 prescriptions 1 is a very strong oral steroid to fight it from the inside out, one is a steroid cream to fight from the outside in and the other is an allergy medicine ( she called it an extra strength Balladry) she said it was chronic eczema but couldn't figure out why the skin wasn't harder. If it doesn't clear up in a month they are going to do a skin scrapping. Hopefully now I can FINALLY get some relief from this persistent rash!

I used to spend so much time trying to get back to how I used to be. It was like trying to swim against a current. Life was pushing me in one direction and I kept pushing back in the other. Peace finally entered my life when I understood that I was never supposed to return to my old self and I started embracing this new version of me. A friend of mine spoke those words to me. I remember the day like yesterday when I officially received that understanding. I felt my whole life shift. This is when I truly began to understand the meaning of flow and allowing.

Time to cook, clean, and work tonight. Regardless of how I'm feeling..I gotta handle my responsibilities..I DON'T BEG OTHER PEOPLE TO DO IT FOR ME...if you think that was a smart remark towards you, it probably was lol.

My sis and I were sitting on the couch watching a scary movie and to the side of us looking head on is our stair case. I have a canvas painting of the beach on the wall going up the stairs and when her and I were sitting there we both looked up at the stairs and the canvas flew off the wall like somebody threw it and it tumbled down the stairs! And when I went to go look the big thick nail was still in the wall! It did not budge at all!! We called mom and she says it is because there is a full moon, I sure hope it it's just from that Lol, crazy!!