Book Of Likes

I don't want to be admired or even worse, adored, for being a strong woman. Every time I hear that, it literally makes me wanna puke!

As I sit here watching Half Pint work on a math worksheet, I can't stop thinking about all the news reports lately. I'm blessed to be able to homeschool her and know exactly what's goin on around us during the day. My heart breaks for everyone who no idea what evil is about to be forced upon them and can happen anywhere. It truly is pure evil to see all the murdering going on nowadays. "Be strong and of good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee" Deuteronomy 31:6.

Talk with with people in person to learn who they are and stop eating up their Internet personalities. I have learned many times that what people put off is just a facade.

I know a lot of people complain a lot with all of the fights and social and political squabbling that go on on social media. But I have to tell you, right now I am counting my blessings, and I am so thankful for my friends and family I have known personally all my life, and friends I only know through social media. Right now I am feeling so much love and positive energy. Book Of Likes is like anything else, if you use it for the right reasons, and use it responsibly, it can be a wonderful thing. I have people from across the world lifting me up in prayer, sending me good vibes, and I have made new friends who have been through exactly what I'm going through right now. And I'm so grateful for that. This is a forum where we can share our laughter, our burdens, and our sorrows, and I have people I may never meet face to face walking this journey with me. Thank you for letting me share this with you. Happy 2020 everyone!

I don’t know who I am anymore. I literally struggle getting out of bed,so much so, that I say nah eff it. I attached myself to someone I knew, like frfr, wasn’t ready for no serious relationship. I got myself fired,and really ain’t put to much effort into finding another job. I managed to lose,not just one,but two cars. I have yet to face the fact that my mother is gone,I haven’t nor can I at the moment even go to her gravesite. I have cut myself off from life . I have no motivation,no drive, no backbone to do anything. There is like no fight or will left. And I know all this, and I know what needs to be done,but I just cant shake this feeling off. I tried talking to a psychiatrist but that bishhh was not getting it. And I have been so dependent on Shoom, that I messed myself up. Now that he is gone, it’s like wtf type attitude. I hardly even let people close to me before this shii all started, that I don’t even know who to reach out to anymore. I’m in deep pain…….and I used to be able to handle myself better before hi,. But right now… I just feel like giving up.

I just want to go on adventures, road trips (even flights), go to museums (art, history,science) , visit national parks, eat new food, go sky diving, ride in a hot air balloon, listen to live music, make friends, pet animals, put my toes in the sand , get darker, eat fruit, smile A LOT, and live my life like it’s nobody’s business.

I like TV, if it Netflix or Regular cable, I don't care, all I want is to watch something interesting and entertain my family.